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good morning
there's a story and the bible's by jonah and the wheel
jonah gets swallowed by the wheel
him down in the wheel goes into the ocean
so this is like machine
when gets swallowed by machine
in its she goes into the great ocean
so the shushing protect us from the ocean
hmm
and what does it to be consumed by something
what is it to be consumed by anything
the be consumed by the pain in your left buttock and after you've been sitting still for thirty minutes
i said that stories about
in jonah stayed in the whale for forty days and nights
forty days and nights is way too long to hold your breath and keep waiting for the bill to rink
it's way too long to keep your shoulders tense
and endure chest tense
and just wait
forty days and nights you just gotta give up
and be in the belly of the wheel
whether you like it or not there you are
consumed
not one not too
so it's a very sad story

you know the last time i sat here
it was dark and wet
the little cold
now it's sunny starting to warm up
hmm
lot happens inside the belly of the will
this is famous and story that goes something like this
not like that
that's another is a story that's happening all the time
whether we like it or not
ah
where question and answer arise together
he's or anybody listening
this sense story
m teacher as student

when the wind blows the china
does a child move with the wind move
and the student responds
the mind moves
and the teacher asks her
say something about the mind
in the students says in perturb ability
the capacity to not be disturbed

union as dongsheng shine a similar question
what was a lot simpler he just sort of said to him has gone
and don't chan said
i wouldn't say i'm totally peaceful
and union said well what would you say you need say
it's like
in the middle of a pile of shit there's a bright pearl

isa the famous haiku
poet said
how lovely
for the torn paper screen
the milky way

so what are they getting at
how does it relate to the very substance the very particularity ease of your experience
how does a guy in your effort
how does a guide your response to being in the belly of the will to being who you are to be watch a bar
what does it say a right
what it is we're trying to do here this week

what is it to wait for the builder ring for forty days and nights

another famous sense story

a student with great insight as said teacher
how can i avoid all this discomfort
how can i avoid
being pushed and pulled
by being annoyed and disappointed by being hurt by being discouraged and being caught up in relation

and the teacher said no or worry to go to the place where it doesn't happen

and the students have a worries that place
is that in perturb mobility
the place where the karmic dualism of being what we are ceases
is there a way around it is there a way underneath it above it
how do we get there

someone told me recently that they can see absolutely no point for subjecting themselves to all the pain and discomfort that machine create
and they asked me for a good reason why they should do it
what would they get over what would they accomplish

so we laugh at that question because we know
that we've asked it maybe not essential ball terms but
in the midst of wearing our cloak of physical pain with search for that place that physical position
it goes beyond discomfort
maybe if i just move my back a little bit more like this
i mean if i breathe into a soft slow bread it'll melt
if if i hold my murderer a little more like that

maybe if i can calm my mind
not let those kinds of thoughts come up
those kind of experiences entering
i can find that place of in peterborough ability

so that's what the students asking about
and that's what we're asking ourselves
over and over again
as we endeavour into sheen
especially in those moments where it just seems way too intense

whether it's our physical pain or whether it's the

the creation of our psychological life
bringing forth
whatever it is a brings forth
whether it's fear uncertainty loneliness yearning

how do we find in turbo building
how do we find that steady suddenness
that allows us to see the milky way through the torn paper screen
hmm
what a sweet image

and what a fierce answer the teacher head
just let it kill you
whatever it is that arises
just imagine you're in the belly of a wheel
for forty days and nights
it really doesn't help the struggle against it
this beard

sophie a pretty fierce proposition

but something about this proposition we study turn over in turn back

we look at it carefully and we see that there's a way in which
when we're willing to be here
by this point into machine
press machine starts to seem like a dream
we start to think that breakfast means going to the zendo in eating or yoking

we start to associate nine time
with work meetings

our life has been redefined restructured
this great wheel is consuming us
with such a potency
that we can't resist it
you know the one thing you'll learn from doing lots of machines
is that it's better not even to try to resistant
the most helpful thing you can do for yourself
is be consumed

and let that happen more and more
telling each activity into period of zazi
each meal
each work period
just be your whole life

to let him draw you in
to let it establish it's own grind of here and now

this is very hopeful

and as we started to do it as a kind of a relief
not that we're totally happy here but even so the still shorter leash
because we've experienced the agitation
of trying to be somewhere else of trying not to be here
we've experienced that right in there right in that struggle in that resisting
there is suffering
just like they say and all those good books

but as don't shun says doesn't mean we're totally happy here
doesn't mean we've let go
of all the patterns of behavior of body and mind of thought
of emotion
the still moving around
kicking up dust creating a disturbance

but now we have this amazing opportunity to start to see them to feel them for what they are

in this is indeed an amazing opportunity

seto said
the whole world is me
later after an union after dongsheng was leaving young in he made up a poem
in the heart of that palm is a very simple phrase
everywhere i go i meet me
thought to the past me that's the future me
judgments about that me
feelings about this me
pain in my knee me

everywhere i go i made me
the whole world is me

so don't show went on with his illustrious and career
when he played with this idea
and as he played with it he came up with an image in the image is something like this
it has to do with host and guest
so yesterday tier was quoting the line saying if you can achieve continuity
this is called the host
within the host

but sometimes it feels for us like it's happening out there it's being done to us
and it's not very pleasant and it's not what we want
what it is pleasant and we want more of it

those sweet moments in zazen when for whatever fortuitous blessed reasons we find that in perturb ability with the breath develops an intimate texture
and we start to experience its softening
where were we see the activity of mind
and we see right through it and we see the milky way

how wonderful
will it always be like that or i'm enlightened in
if i just managed to do shushing right kind of hit that place and just stay there

hmm

so those moments are very easy to welcome in for those moments we throw the doors wide open and say please come in
take the best seat
we're a wonderful host
where have you been please stick around
but i get so much to talk to about bike
but first
embrace me in your arms
so i never forget
so dang shen played with these ideas the host the guest
welcoming in our experience

rumi writes about this
the guest coming to the door
throwing open the door
setting the table with the finest food and wine for the guest
only to discover that the guest issue
and then finally arrived home

so simple offers a word of instruction
he says try this on
the whole world is you
every experience is you
welcome it in
meet it greeted become it

how would it be to sit thousand and every experience
is here every experience is this body and mind

would this teach us something about in putter ability
the capacity to not be disturbed
to not be thrown into crime to grasp at it or avoided

like a host receiving a guest
once i was taking care of someone who was dying and he was a marvelous host
he had this capacity even though he's very sick and was doing nothing but lying in bed dying to make you feel extremely welcome
i didn't hide it it but every time i went to visit him and i sat down beside him
i felt like i was entering
a fine home
in being treated in a most delightful manner

two please welcome your own experience home
all of it not just the juicy parts
those penetrating insights
those sweet moments
when the bell rings then you move your knees
in this stiff painful body miraculously transforms
in the fluid intimacy
warm and soft how does that happen
where did the stiff painful bodycon
was just an illusion
was it just something we held in our mind
it's a little later we could let it go
whose permission do we need to let it go
what circumstance
can we only let go when the bell rings

so this is inquiring into in peterborough goatee

this is plunging right into the belly of the wheel that's plunging right into the depths of the ocean
how is this world put together anyway
this body that seems so solid seems so normal so known
can become so mysterious when you hold it still for thirty minutes

and what is this physical pain
way by inhale and exhale
and then consume the whole world
and then be held sway again by the breath

so we're studying
very particulars of what it is to be this body is very particulars of what it is to be this mind

sometimes it's mysterious
have you noticed i sometimes this body
is heavy
and sometimes it's flight
sometimes it feels like it has lost all energy and sometimes it feels strong and powerful

what state of mind is that point two
need to those feelings

so we opened the door and we invite in the guest
all the particulars all the experiences that we have we invite the marlin
we make contact with them
as intimately as we can

because we know we're already justice because we know that this is our life
because we know that any thoughts about before shushing and after shushing or just that they're just thoughts

because we know we have indeed being consumed by the wheel

this is life

we throw open the door we welcome in our experience
in sadly code studying the self

so with the patient compassionate diligence
we make contact
to whatever comes up
make contact open to it
jealousy
this very mind as buddha
despair this very mind as buddha
erotic fantasy this very mind as buddha
great compassionate thoughts this very mind as buddha
deep gratitude this very mind as buddha

powerful fluid body walking across the xander to bring the hot cereal
this is the body of buddha
what is it

constructed pain for body
lost in the last minutes of a period observing
what is it
how was it

making contact
becoming
just this

whose permission to we need to do this
what accomplishment do we need before we can begin this
under what circumstances and conditions are were willing to engage in this way

each of his answers that for ourselves

and as we studied the self we discover how to answer it

hijacked before you go let me tell you about it during my head of you
you and i and and we're in a car in the car went careening off a cliff
and about a thousand feet below
there was the ocean
and i turned to you and said we have about three seconds but when that song of god it's allied

so sometimes it constricts
and it seems very small
to that's just how it is

in sometimes it feels very spacious and wide and that's how it is then to

so in perturb ability the capacity to not be disturbed
okay
i'm having this experience okay
okay now this okay now this

intellect let the structure and the forms and the particulars carry you force
you're not alone
and you completely alone because the whole world is you
but you're surrounded
buy your own world and you're surrounded by people who are engaging and exactly the same way
because when the whole world issue everybody's in your world
and you're in their worlds
we are an enormous support to each other
to be sitting knowing feeling experiencing everyone else city
the great support for us

as you walk down the hallway just feeling your foot steps touch the floor
this supports
everybody who passes you

already your body for bow is fully active

each time we just let the next event happen
we let the reality of just the being in the midst of shushing
activate itself

the gong hits work meeting

when you sit in a comfortable chair on your break
when it's comfort
consume you
when it's gentle support to your bike soften
your whole back
what the luxury of having your legs uncrossed
a sweet and nourishing
this is what it is
to invite in the guest

how lovely
through the torn paper screen
the milky way
oh
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