Fearlessness - What Is It?

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good morning

one of the reasons i
asked to lecture today
what's that
i looked in
kind of iraqis wrote returning to silence which i mentioned last time
in the
section on ghana
at the end of the book he has a section of the for methods of guidance or body them
and the first disease is donna or generosity
and i mentioned it last time saying that
and he says in india the monks couldn't do productive labor so they could give material things
but they gave seriousness when i went back to read it he says think a fearlessness and the teachings
ah let's try to connect it for me
ah
i never really ready to give a dharma top
i always feel
that i need to prepare more
that i don't know how to talk about it
ah
and there's always some fear
that i might
i might somehow disturb your your practice by something i might say
sometimes if i wake up in the morning before the weight of and i'm lying there thinking
sometimes it comes from all i could say it like this
sometimes i can write down a few notes
what did i have this sort of to show know sometimes and zazen or the other day walking home from the zendo
something some words were forming themselves and it was very inspiring to me
right
well how will i
he sort of like it runs through my fingers
yeah for granted
how to talk about this practice which is so rich
and for which i'm so grateful
how to share his sound difficult for them
not lamina
so i i must try and you must put up with maintenance so sorry but this is my training period to
mr
and so i told the more i want to let you
since i've mentioned to you about the
dream that i had just before the back seat ceremony
in rich just as i was preparing to appear before a large assembly of the clothing underneath my rome began to disappear and then i found myself
when it was time to appear that i had was wearing nothing but the road
and i
ah get one interpretation before i went to the ceremony about being on
completely exposed and then someone suggested well not completely exposed because there's still the road and maybe you're hiding something behind the road
and someone else had another interpretation
that perhaps
i had come to the point in my life where i had no other business except
to wear this role at all the other layers of clothing or rolls or
identities
we're had dissolved and there was only this one
and as i was talking about the difficulty i have in on
how did teach i thought there isn't another interpretation and that is
the road which i put on for the ceremony is a teaching road it's a nine joe casey
i'm giving me this robe and asking me to where it is asking me
to make some attempt to do this and
that may be
some of the symbolism of that dream
in any event
that dream seems to have a lot of possibilities
and i had a second dream
i as i may have mentioned i don't dream very often and when i do i mostly don't remember them
on
but
in this dream i was supposed to ah
i was a dream garage and i was supposed to be giving a lecture and i was going over to the
ah the main house where the dining room and kitchen are looking for someone who is upstairs and i couldn't find the entrance and i was circling all around and it got very
convoluted in the dream there it was there are other houses there and then all the houses were sort of on a cliff by the ocean and i got myself in a place would see can't get there from here kind of grace i came up to this impenetrable stone wall and i said
oh gee i'd better go back around the other way
i've been all around it by then but
and someone at that point came out on their porch and said done
ah
you can scramble and i said well up that impenetrable wall and she said no right there were understanding and i look and they're right regular standing was a hole on the wall on there was a entrance to the were on it own
where is an old story about
a sailing vessel off the coast of brazil
which had run out of fresh water and this they spotted another vessel and they signaled to them to to
please come and meet them that they were out of water which is a very dangerous thing on the ocean an errata side of land and so i signal we need water please
we'll send some also written i got back the signal put down your buckets where you are
and where they were although the was out of sight of land was where the amazon river emptied into the ocean and it's such a massive river that far out of sight of land is still fresh water
so put down your buckets where you are
our practice and i realization is right where we are
there is nothing new from right here
ah
in one of the stories
ah one of the enlightenment stories in the gentle rocking the
the story is that right to kazan zingy compile of the enlightened much experiences or cohen's related to each of the ancestors of a soto lineage
hum
there is there is one i wanted to share with you
on transmission fourteen
danyang to doubt p
the living buddha yang enters the dharma hall and remarks to be assembled practitioners
if you wish to attain a limitless result
you must become a limitless being
since you already are such a being
why become anxious to bring bring about any such result
this is a hiroshi as you a perfect just as you are
on this very mind as buddha
he's
it isn't i have so much to say but i want you to be awake whether i'm listening to me or not

so since you already are such a limitless being why the anxious about such a result
so early practicing just to express this limitless being or because we think we're not a limitless feeling
once we discover we are limitless being
will we continue practicing
well of course that's what limitless beings do
visitors dove and cengiz practice enlightenment all one word practice realization
this practice itself expresses our limitlessness
which is here with us from the beginning
i keep bringing up for you
this questioner
what is it what is it you're doing here what is it you're doing what is it what
and another one of the stories
in this correction
is ja yashin to young union
building a good as the wandering monk who appears that the map in one day where have you practiced
the successor says twenty years under by job
what does he teach
he usually says my expression contains all hundred flavors
what is the total expression neither sought in are bland remark hesitate to make any statement during this moment they awakened one breaks through if you remain even slightly hesitant what are you going to do about the realm of birth and death that stands right here before your eyes
we're coming more bold the destined successor replies there is no girth and there is no there
the master says twenty years with the one by john has still not freed you from habitual of affirmation a virtual negation i ask you again mainly what does bhaijaan teach
successor he often remarks look beyond the three months of looking understand beyond the six modes of understanding
master that kind of instruction has nothing no connection whatever with to actual awakening
what does by jiang really teach
the successor says watch master bhaijaan entered the dharma hall to deliver a discourse
the months were standing expectantly in straight rows suddenly the sage lunged at as fiercely swinging his large wouldn't stay we scattered in every direction of full of voice he then called up oh monks
heads turned and eyes looked and by john yes gently why is it
what is it
master says to your kindness today i had finally been able to come face to face with my marvelous brother raja
and it is commentary or at six and says union is not merely repeating his masters
words he has really he has realized the spirit of by johns teaching which he reports carefully in one hesitating at first to make any statement at all that would limit the richness of where he has received
only the non teaching what is it what is it as union overlooked
why
because it is more subtle than the subtle more essential than the essential
under the runner was problem of wooded ja schon the submerged memory of this non-teaching arises from early in his discipleship
remembering the fear swinging of the heavy wooden stairs and yeah suddenly become sensitive again to the dangerous round of birth and death which from an absolute point of view he has mistakenly dismissed
what is it
what is it spoken twice almost in a whisper
clears away both absolute and relative
this is what our ancient japanese guide cause we're leasing the handhold on a rock face and leaping from the precipice
this question comes up again and again throughout
zen history
this is what simple as the months who came to his gait what is it
he's written young men said what's the matter
what is the business that brings us here
have want you to investigate this
and i don't ask you to look for the worse
it worse or secondary
want you to find the feel it
when she to find the fire it
what you to touch the source
have your life force
to feel the joy and love
of living from the source of your being
this is taking refuge
to throw yourself completely
into aliveness of your life
it's pretty risky you could lose yourself
there's nothing to hold onto
when the onrushing kaleidoscopic chaos of our life there is nothing substantial to hold onto
it's just arising moment after moment after moment
we can't identify with any of it
it arises and passes away
in the midst of that
the openness of this question what
what
what
in the midst of this openness
when you touch
it really open place
read it at large
read it expand
read it explode your limitless you limited view
this substantial separate cell
and allow you to experience the boundlessness
have you been
seeing yourself in everything
this is don tions it's like facing the jewel mirror form an image behold each other
you are not it it actually is you
this doesn't mean that when he looked over the bridge and saw his reflection in the stream
that he saw that this reflection was him method this water was him the rocks were him
everything
the onrushing stream was not separate from himself
wherever he looked
that's it you a mirror
whenever he saw was not simple
this is awakening
to the totality
go war
important one
it's not that
you disappear you are you and you are everything simultaneously
relative and absolute intermingle and interpenetrate
chain of this morning in sandow caught
you are new and you are not separate from anything
it begins with your grant
higgins was just breathing in and breathing out
what is in some right is outside
have you follow your breath from your horror deep at the bottom of your horror
follow it out
all the way let it throw completely
just
exhale and don't worry about the inhale exhale
will become an inhale of its own
trusted
fair at the bottom of your grip
at that moment between exhale and inhale
the very quiet
moment
stay right there
huh
he ripped whatever arises right
huh
super she says when we practice zazen and all that exists is the movement of the breeding
and we're aware of this movement
you should not be absent minded
but to be aware of the movement does not mean to be aware of your small cell but rather have your universal nature or britain nature
this kind of awareness is very very important because we are usually so one sided
our usual understanding of life as dualistic
you and i this and that good and bad but ashley these discriminations or themselves the awareness of the universal existence
you means to be aware of the universe in the form of you
and i mean to be aware of it in the form of i
you and i are just swinging doors
reading the breath go in and out
this kind of understanding is necessary
this should not even be called understanding it is actually the true experience of life through zen practice
huh returning to don't show and his
realization
when don't shine was leaving union
he said in the future after you are gone and when people ask me about your teaching what shall i say
union pauses imperceptibly and then softly says just this
just this
at this moment the successor hesitates the old sage perceives it and warmly encourages don't shine you must be extremely careful and thorough in realizing just this
traveling on foot through green mountains pondering just this
what a dumb machine while was wondering waded across a stream suddenly perceives the reflection of his own face and the swiftly flowing water
his subtle hesitation evaporates and he's now prepared to accomplish the transmission of right
he sings and quiet ecstasy why seek mind somewhere else
wandering freely i meet my own true nature everywhere
through all phenomena
i cannot become it for it is already mean
huh
this affirmation that we're already complete
rosie's the teaching at our school it is the fundamental teaching our school
and yet each one of us must investigate it for ourselves
each one of us must
explore what
what can it mean
huda from the beginning
duncan zingy is question was if we're we're from the beginning wide we need to practice
it was a consuming question for him he pursued it through practice
through susan
through sitting
and attending to breath
through the coming completely internet with his innermost request
humboldt brought up the case
forty two from
kentaro roku
one chuy to young yuan com yeah you won one
when japanese
susan i didn't write do you recall a write off which which these are in the lineage we chant
matter
don don't eat a don don concrete real as on income
the distance successor background on known as functioning as attendant to the living buddha carrying his ceremonial robe
as they stand together in the dharma hall the attendant opens for the mastered this venerable patchwork row the all search terms and whispered
what is really going on beneath this role
the successor deeply prepared to the transmission of light remains poised in silence
an intensely the master continues to whisper
to study and practice the brutal way without reaching what is beneath the road create the greatest pain please asked me the question
the successor repeat the sages worse what is really going on beneath this road
with almost no sound the zen master response deep intimacy
immediately successful awakens as living rural places the ceremonial robe over the shoulders of his master and performs three prostrations of gratitude abundant tears soaking his own upper road
it have now greatly lincoln but can you express it
successor yes
master what is going on beneath this robe of transmission
successor deep intimacy
master an even deeper intimacy
what is this intimacy it begins with yourself
becoming completely intimate
with yourself
through this intimacy with yourself
the possibility of being intimate with another arises
because he was so intimate with himself
suzuki roshi could meet me completely when i vowed to him and jump up and bow back to me before i even knew it
when i was
remembering that moment
i had this deep pain
wondering
will i ever be able to meet someone
as he met me
huh
in this role
without settling the great matter
is the most painful

the mission should make it says
one and all all in one if only this is realized
no more worry about not being perfect
huh

yeah
his intention equal a every place